Friday, July 3, 2020

MY ETERNAL TRAVELLER

              The day before the 4th of July, sweet Jesus I am having a really bad day today, this was your favorite holiday my love,  Oh the parties we would have to celebrate this day, so many guests, so much food, party favors, games, fishing, kids running under the sprinkler, and of course the best of all  "FIREWORKS"!!  Such a display you would have everyone enjoying your fireworks, I remember how you would set up this event a week prior to the big party, all the arranging you did, it all had to be just right and babe it sure was, All the work you and your friends would put into this endeavor and just like" Thanksgiving all that cooking for an hours pleasure " only for the 4th it did last most of the day, how you would pace yourself not to drink too much Stroh's all day due to the fact you had to be up and ready for the  " Really Big Show"  all the OOH"S & AH"s during the show even the patriotic music that you and our neighbor would synchronize was just the absolute best, Nah I take that back the absolute best was when you would yell out "FIRE IN THE HOLE" !!   When we had our very first party I wasn't too pleased, all the work that was involved and the cost of your display was overwhelming to me but seeing the joy it not only brought to you but to all who attended was well worth it. I remember how it took us 2 days to clean up to get back to normal, however after the display in the dark of night how Mrs. D  would get a crew out in the street to sweep it all up !!  Lady DI would get a clean up crew together too for kitchen clean up and a can would be passed around for donations for "next year" I guess there was no getting out of it after the can was passed around, it was our annual thing for several years !!  Now all I have are the memories of how we celebrated and the sadness of knowing there will be no more with you. I was invited to a party for the 4th but i just do not want to go without you by my side, I know I would not be good company to others but I do so appreciate the invite!  I just want to be alone tomorrow but I won't be because you will be in my thoughts the whole time.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  I decided to take a nap today all I did was cry into my pillow, finally falling asleep who comes to my dreams but you, you told me you are an eternal traveller now, going to visit all the sights and places you always wanted to go to and you said you had only just begun, you were keeping in mind the places I would like and when I joined you we would go on quite an adventure together but not yet, You said you were going to go tonite and tomorrow nite to see all the fireworks displays you could and you would be a weary traveller by day's end. I told you it's about time you got to sit back and enjoy the beautiful displays since you really couldn't with yours, you told me I was wrong that you got your enjoyment by giving to others. that's what I miss so much about you my love, how generous and giving you always were. You told me Bob and Cy and Ichabod were going with you for the holiday displays. I am jealous that I cannot accompany you but I want you to so ENJOY ! yourself.  So as for tonite and tomorrow nite I will look out my window and hopefully see some fireworks displays  I know I will surely hear them as I have for the past few weeks, I will think of  "the guys" on their travels and wonder if they will see at least some of the same fireworks as I do. Enjoy your holiday my love and my friends !!                                                                                                                                 I love and miss you desperately my sweet man !!!     That is all for today my "SPECIAL READERS"  Ta-Ta  for now !!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          Image may contain: people sitting